My birthday falls just 2 short months after Isla, so my first birthday as a mom was a lot of mixed emotions. I felt the happiest I'd ever felt having just become a mom, but also felt a bit lost and filled with some post partum blues. Of course the celebration was great and I was lucky enough to take a few days away in the sun. But it was hard to shake the feeling of just not being "myself". I had yet to get used to my new "identity" as a mom and was still clinging to my old identity pre-baby. Thankfully my husband made the day very special and was so understanding while I got through this weird hormonal time.